Where is My Mind- The Pixies

where is my mind?
i'm so pissed with myself. i'm highly dissatisfied with my results.
i should have worked harder when i had the chance.

Speech Comm - B+
Writ Comm - B+
Soc Psy - B+
Radio Production - C+
Contem. Issues - B+
IAC - C+

and my grade pt average is 3.21. which just makes me sadder.

i hate all these pluses. it just means that i'm less than 5 marks away from getting a grade higher.
it means i could have gotten 4 As if i weren't so full of myself in the beginning!
and i'm really upset abt my radio. i thought we did quite well for our last capsule project. sigh. :( it must have been my voice; it's too radio unfriendly.

anyway. this Pixies song was from the Fight Club soundtrack. it's a darn good song. totally what i'm feeling now.
i need to morph into freaky-nerd-over-achiever mode next semester. the state of mind i was in when i was in the best class and we'd get paranoid and sneak peek into each other's diaries to find out who's got the best score.
i'm serious. i remember that happening before in sec 3. it was frightening. gosh it was so competitive. :S
ok i won't morph into freaky-nerd-over-achiever mode. but i WILL work hard. till my guts are spilled all over and my intestines are hanging out i will drag myself to lecture and NOT fall asleep in ANY lesson AND give every single big or small assignment my infinite effort.
done deal. for once it pays that i dont have puppy love to distract me, and i actually don't really want it. i'm THAT affected. it's just that the future scares me. i don't want to be caught unprepared and left with nowhere to go but a desk job where i have to type numbers or names all day. or WORSE. do telemarketing.

30 years of TELEMARKETING? NO.

i've thought about it. i will practice hard for my guitar too. that way i can still be a starving musician (let's face it, i'm not very good). actually if reality didnt hit me every second, i would have chosen to be a starving musician over any job in the world.

by the time i graduate, i will have passed my 20th birthday. the BIG 2. rayve made it sound quite unnerving. his advice? don't pass up any opportunity. big or small.

advice is really repetitive, you know. it's getting it into your head that's troublesome. hmm.

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okay i've just been informed that a higher GPA is better!
so i guess i didnt do that badly.
haha.

I blogged @ 8:25 PM